Don't Change

by Janice Scott-Reeder

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I've felt the cold North wind upon my skin,

And thirsted at midday in the summer's desert,

Tried to find my last breath in a warm Atlantic sea,

Touched the clouds on the back of a wooley Llama.

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I've seen the things men can do to each other,

Cried buckets over childhood's innocence tarnished,

Held a butterfly without touching its beating wings,

Danced beneath the icey velvet skies of the Andes.

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I've touched the last breath of a soul escaping pain,

Held the dying close to a breaking heart,

Watched the killing begin and never seem to end,

Seen the sun rise over mountains coloured in blood.

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I've held the bloodied child at first breath,

Stroked its brow when there's no life left,

Taken things abhorrent into my fragile heart,

Tried to mend the souls so badly broken.

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But never have I really ever lived and breathed,

Until the day I chanced to look within your soul.

In an instance, through laughter, I saw your pain,

And took you whole and broken into my spirit.

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Within the chambers of my spirit's mansion,

I saw your flaws in all their perfection.

I could not help but love the light you brought,

As your eyes held me in passion's soft grip.

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Between two steel curtains I saw the man,

And though I ran in fear and mounting confusion,

I fell in love with the lust I saw on your face.

Now I need to feel the heat of your hot touch.

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The others will never chance to see,

The man that hides within the roles.

But naked before me you stand in fear,

It is you, not the mask, I hold dear.

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I know the fear that trembles your heart.

You know I've never really loved.

I'll hold you up until I fall.

Just hold me tight each and every night.

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I'll not ask you to change a thing.

I'm old enough to know your needs.

All your freedom I let you keep,

If you just touch me in love and lust.